Blackness of a Storm
Their text comes in at 4 p.m. just as I am flipping the last page of the book I am reading. Just as … Read more
The Smell of Death
I stare right at her as she talks, even though I can barely see her. I notice her lips moving, the … Read more
This is How They Will Find You
You had forgotten how it felt to stand in the shower with someone else. To have someone else watch … Read more
Talking to You
Dear Bree, I was reading Audre Lorde’s Sister Outsider, and she asked, “What do you do with your … Read more
Killing Myself, for You
I almost killed someone today. I say almost, because I was this close, this close to killing myself. … Read more
Teaching My Heart How to Beat Again
I am on phone with Jack at 2 a.m. when I lose it. “Breathe. Just breathe, please,” he is saying, but … Read more
The Hand of Darkness
“I tried to kill myself yesterday,” I say, just as I settle in my chair across him. The words fall … Read more
Staying Alive
When it starts, this racing of my heart as if I am losing myself again. This palpitating of my heart … Read more